Friendship and Dentists

Ok so for a few minutes after my last post I received a private message from Ryan. Yes that Ryan. I was a bit shocked at first but he said that he saw me online and though 'well we used to get along really well'. And it turns out we still do. We hung out on Friday night, prepping my character for an online rp he is running, watching Beowulf (great movie) and generally catching up. I realized how much I missed his friendship. I know back when we broke up I went on about how much of a prick he was and in fact for a long time that was all I could remember him being a prick. Thing is some of the things that irritated me as his girlfriend, such as his constant need to make me feel inferior because I am female and his occasional telling me to just shut up, I actually don't mind as a friend, I can just laugh it off like I did before we got together. On Sunday we went in town, got hot chocolate and browsed around, he also gave me alone of some of his comics which is cool. The only spanner in the works was Niamh who seemed to forget that I am not her and Ryan is not Malloy, she was continually making me feel like a whore for going to him and she implied that the only reason he was back in contact with me again was to either get back together with me or else just get in my pants. She sees to have calmed down a bit now that I have assured her he didn't try anything, but she better get over it soon cos I don't like having to explain my actions to her.

I went to the dentist today and found out the good news, I am getting braces!! Well I'm getting a retainer to straighten my top teeth. I'll have it for about six months and then the real work begins, reshaping my gums, filling any cavities, and bridging any gaps. I know it's gonna cost a lot of money and take a long time but at least at the end of it I will be able to smile without feeling self-conscious.

Drama drama and more drama

Ok so my life has been full of drama large and small lately. Most of the drama has centered around work but I'll deal with that later. Other drama includes Cathal possibly going to far on his blog, Vicky and Steve breaking up and then getting back together, my family making me feel weird about hanging out with Dave, and college screwing me over in regards my fees.

Ok so as alot of people know my friend Cathal also has a blog here (see right of screen for link) where he talks about everything and anything, mostly sex and masturbation how he wants to partake in the first one and regularly partakes in the second. His most recent one, or the most recent one I have read I am too lazy to actually go check, was about how he is essentially Superman and he should never have listened to anyone growing up as what he did as a youngster writing wise is ten times better than the stuff he rights now. This is a realization we all come to at some point in our lives so we'll let him off (although he was a bit overly dramatic about the whole situation). The problem some people had with this entry and with many he has made in the past is his masturbation talk, it really goes above, beyond and past warp speed in regards to need to know. This talk has made certain people nervous of Cathal and they fear where it will lead. Personally as long as he doesn't ever go and rape someone I have no problem with him writing out his thoughts, but man you might want to tune it down a small bit. Also the reference to me and Vicky that he had at the end, I am just hoping that he put it is as a mess because the idea that he writes this stuff for us is a little creepy.

Ok so Vicky and Steve broke up and then got back together again. While I was initially a bit surprised at the fact that she got back with him, she seems to be happy and so I am happy for her. I don't think it is my place to tell you details so I'm not gonna. BTW Steve, if you hurt her there will no place on this planet, i this solar system, in this galaxy, hell in the entire 'verse where you can hide from me.

Ok so next on my list is my family making me feel weird about me hanging out with Dave. For Niamh this is nothing new, ever since the debs whenever he comes up in conversation she goes on about how I am secretly in love with him. I had great fun in freaking her out when I told her that Dave stayed in my house after we went to see Juno (good movie by the way). Unfortunately it backfired and now she is more convinced than ever that I am in love with him. My mother told me to ignore but then went and made things worse by telling Colum and Francis about our night out (or our date as my mother has taking to calling it) and now they won't leave me alone. I tried to explain that we are just friends no different than me and Vicky or me and Elinor but the more I try to convince them the more they laugh and say that I am just trying to convince myself. I have no problem with people having a laugh at it but it is starting to make things really confusing for me when I am around him, I keep thinking am I flirting with him (Vicky once said that I flirt with people and don't notice), do I actually like him, could he possibly like me? It is driving me nuts because until they said I hadn't thought about it.

Ok college fees. I have recently made my second and last payment of college fees. Only problem is they charged me too much. I went and asked and apparently after my exemption from my lab had been taken off my fees they decided to put it back on with no reason as to why. So I had to get another letter from the chemistry dept to say that I didn't have to do my labs and so shouldn't be charged for them. I brought this to the fees office only to be told that the woman who deals with exemptions os on holiday. With no idea when she would be back or when the closing date for paying my fees was (man the woman in that office was stupid) I payed the full price and am now hoping that when the woman returns from her holiday she will put though my exemption and refund me any extra money.

Ok work sucks at the moment, so I am looking for a new job. Why does work suck? Well lets see in one week we lost two drivers, an insider and our assistant manager all with little or no notice. Then we get a new assistant manager who doesn't know squat and is as slow as a snail, even though he has worked in like four other shops. Finally my hours get screwed up. Three weeks ago my manager asked me if I would be willing to put in a few extra hours and say do an opening shift or two, I need the money so I told him that starting this week I would be able to do my closings on wednesday and saturday as well as one opening shift. But in my hours for this week my shift on wednesday was cut back by three hours (that really isn't a problem as I don't like staying there till 1am) but there was no opening. Ok they needed to train the new assistant manager that's why I was given the earlier shift and my manager just hasn't seen me to talk over doing an opening, right? Nope!! Went in today and I'm no longer working wednesday at all, and still have no opening shift!!! And it's not that the assistant manager has taken my shift (that I wouldn't really argue over) but another insider. What the hell is going on?? That idiot asks me to do more hours and I say I will, yet he cuts me back from 17 hours a week to 10!!! At this rate I will barely be able to afford the payments on my loan!!!! Thankfully I got a call from Mace today and I have an interview next Thursday so hopefully this drama will soon draw to a close.

Well here I am again

I know I always promise that I will update this thing more often and I never do, sorry about that. In the months since my last post a few things have happened. I won a free trip to London with work and had a total blast while I was there, pics can be seen on my flickr account which I will add a link to on the side bar. Christmas came and went with me getting come pretty awesome presents, docs, a chocolate fountain, a zen. I also turned 20 which was fun, Me and some of my nearest and dearest went to dinner and then we went to Freakscene, not a lot of people came to my birthday but I still had a lot of fun.

As for more recent news, well there isn't much. I'm still single, something which is actually starting to tick me off. My sister is on a make-over warpath, she apparently wants me to discover my inner hottie and gain more self-confidence. And I am finally doing something about my teeth which can only end well. College and dance are both going ok. And work, well work is insane lately as people keep leaving, lol.

Family?? What family??

Ok so I just got back from my nan and sister's grave (no they are not the same person merely buried in the same plot) and I am seriously ticked off. Today is the 40th anniversary of my maternal grandmothers death, and it is only today that she got her name put on a headstone. SHE WAS IN THE GROUND OR 40 YEARS AND TODAY SHE GETS A HEADSTONE!?! Does that seem wrong to anyone else? As I said my sister is also buried in the plot and after being buried there 25 years ago she too only got her name on a headstone today!!!

For as long as I can remember the fact that these two people did not have a headstone ticked me off, but today as I heard the full story I went nuts. My grandmother had 1o other children, my mother being the youngest by far. 10!! and not one of those cow herding sad excuses for human beings saw fit to see the woman laid to rest properly. I found out today that or the last 25 years my mother has been trying to get a tombstone with my sisters and my nan's names on it and she wasn't allowed!! They told her she had no right!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! Her daughter is buried there for crying out loud!!!! Finally my mother got onto the right people and without consulting anyone she put up the €300 to get a small headstone for the two of them, with only our names written as those who miss them. The struggle was made more evident when my mother broke down at the grave, yes she always cries when we go there and for good reason but today, she was inconsolable.

Those sorry SOB's that call themselves her family have a lot to answer for!! They better just hope they never come round asking me for a favor, or I'll give 'em a favor right up their bloomin arses!!! Honestly if my family treated me like that I'd come back and haunt them for all eternity.

Sing-a-longs and Birthday Parties

So I finally got to go to my first Sound of Music Sing-a-long, and OMG it was so class!!!!!! I went as a kitten, although I up to the time I left I was considering not dressing up at all. My mother had made a few comments that made me feel rather stupid, but I decided that I wanted to dress up and so I would. Niamh drew whiskers on me and I brought Ears and a bell collar in my bag to put on when I got there. There wasn't that many people there that were dressed up, at least there wasn't when were were waiting for the gate to be opened. A woman came up to us asking if she was in the right place and when she saw my ace she said "Well I guess I am. My dear you look fantastic, it's great to see people getting into the spirit of things." When we got in and were seated a woman from the echo approached me and took my picture, thankfully it wasn't in the paper, and when I sat back down everyone around me clapped. Soon the MC went on stage and talked us through the interactions or the film, he was really funny. Before the film began we had the fancy dress comp. There were three sections, Nuns, groups, and individuals. A woman who made her own habit won in the Nuns, a group of friends wearing different things won the group, and guess who won individual.....ME!!!!!! My prize was crap, as they always are, but I didn't care. When the film started everyone quickly got into the swing of things, including my mom. At the end of the first song I was nearly in tears, I hate that song particularly the last line "And I'll sing once more" because they always play that one line when people interview Julie and it's mean because she will never sing that way again. When it came time for the interval I went to the bar to get a drink and everyone stopped me and congratulated me. They all said that I must be a big fan to have gone to the effort, if only they knew. A few people asked where I got the ears and collar and when I told them they came from Ann Summers they laughed and most said something like "kinky." The second half was a lot of fun as the woman next to be was drunk and wouldn't stop screaming whenever Elsa came on the screen. I did notice that a lot of people didn't sing the first word or two of every sentence during some of the songs until the words came up, for shame needing the words. Soon the night came to an end I was left wandering town with my mom looking for a cab. I had so much fun I can't wait to go again.


On Saturday June 23rd my bestest friend ever turned 18. WOOOO!!!!! Happy Birthday Elinor!!!!! Four of us went to Scoozis for dinner, me, El, Brendon, and Sinead. The food was to die for, particularly the strawberry pavalovo hmmmmmmmmmm. After a quick stop to move Sinead's car and pick up people from area we were off to the Franciscan Well. We had a laugh talking and taking pics. Dave was there, he was at our debs, Claire and some of El's friends from Ventures were there, as were some of her friends from Schuh. Soon people began to leave and it was just me, El and Dave heading back to area where we met up with Brendon. After chatting for hours and gaming for a while it was six o' clock by the time El, Brendon and I headed off for home. The day went very well I think and Elinor seemed to have a lot of fun which as all that matters. Now that she is 18 I can't wait till we go out clubbing, lol Redz won't kno what hit it.

Pics from both evening can be found on my buzznet just click my photos.

Freedom at Last!!!!

Wow it's been a while since I was last here hasn't it? Well lets see what has happened between then and now. Hmmmmm *scratches head for emphasis* let's see.

The big thing is I have finished my first year of college, wooo!!!!! My exams went fairly well although I had one or two dodgy ones that may come back to bite me on the ass, although considering my emotional state at the time I think I did really well.

So now that I am free from college and study I have an abundance of free time. I have decided that I am going to have fun this summer, although I have yet to make a good start on it. There are two important things happening in the month of June that should set the foundation for a totally cool summer. Elinor's birthday and sing-a-long sound of music.

Elinor's birthday is on Saturday June 23rd and it's gonna be great. There are a number of things that come with celebrating this birthday as it is her 18th. This means she can now come clubbing, which is a time when I miss having my number one LL with me. It also marks a landmark for us as we first met on her 9th birthday which mean that on this birthday I will have known her for exactly half her life. I know there are many people who have known her longer but I don't care. I love my girl and i can't believe it has been nine years, wow I feel old!!

The sing-a-long sound of music actually happens before Elinor's birthday. It is on Thursday June 21st and I am so excited you would not even believe. I know most people don't understand my obsession with Julie Andrews, I mean I go through actor obsessions regularly but none to this extent. I can't explain why I love this woman so much, I mean not only is she an amazing actor, but she was the most beautiful singer, she worked through the loss of her voice and wrote some lovely childrens books, she's strong and works for good causes, and to top it all off she swears like a trouper. I am part of a Julie Andrews forum and a number of people on the site have met her or have been to some cool events relating to her. While she will not be at the sing-a-long it is the first thing related to her to come to Ireland. The only question now is what do I wear, I'm torn between, a white dress with a blue satin sash, and a kitten costume (whiskers necessary).

Goodbye Nan

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!

At 6:50 this morning, Thursday April 26th 2007, my grandmother Mrs. Kathleen Brady passed away at the age of 95. She was not in any pain, nor was she even aware it was happening. She simply closed her eyed to go back to sleep and then did not wake up. I was never very close to my grandmother, dspite the fact that she only lives...lived across the road from me. I always felt like I was her least favourite grandchild, although I know that that was not true. However, just because I wasn't as close to her as my siblings or cousins were does not mean I love her any less. I miss her terribly already, and it has only been 16 hours. I will remember her always, may she rest in peace.

I love you Nan.